my mind

in chaotic mode

kepale otak naik ting tong

assalamuailaikum...

erm lame gak ak mengomel kat blog ni....

almaklumlah bz memanjang....

serabut ak dibuatnyer....

gilow tension minggu ni...

kerja melambak xle ingat punyer...

pe da exco akedemik...

kalu nak suwoh wat note pown beragak la....

melambak kowt...

nak study utk dri sendrik pown x sempat...

should b diz week ak g epowh...

tp dek kerna keerja ni terpakse ak berkorban....

ak nak balik wooo....

dah melepas....

then ngan inter fakulti ni...

penat masuk jew...

last2 dapat satu jew pingat n 2 pown perak jew...

sok klaz but kul 3 ak still idop...

dok ngah siapkan kerja ak mention kat atas 2 la..

dah x larat dah wei...

but ptg td ak de terjumpe ex-schoolmate ak...

upenyer ade gak gak benun selain ak terlepas d UniSZA ni...

dasat2....

skang ni ak rase nak g merayap jejauh jew nak kasik ilang sumer tension ak....

tp pe kan daye time xde free lg...

xpe pas ni ak nak isi minyak moto pepenuh then nak g merayap tanpa arah jejauh...

kalik ilang sumer tension ak kat tgh jalan...

k...

that all....

aminnn

gilew pack nyew

assalamualaikum...

pergh makin ujung sem makin pack rase jadual ak...

ntah le naper la...

kang sem ni de lagi faktor penjahanam result ak....

diz week mayb ak trun ipowh utk konvensyen anak perak

then next week dgr cter kne g langkawi plak

program ngan mpp...

gilow abiz duit n mase ak....

dah le banyak x study....

this week sibuk ngan pbl n kerje dr exco akademik...

ak rase macam 24 diberi pada setiap aku cam x cukup jew....

naper erk....

tp org laen cam cukup jew...

ak dah habis maximise kan dah sumer mase bg memenuhi segale kehendak xtvt harian ak

tp still x cukup...

kan bez kalu dapat balik zaman skolah....

cam melambak2 mase ak de....

b4 diz ak terbayang idop sebagai budak u yg really enjoy n x de byk kne study

tp sedar x sedar ak dah tergolong dalam mamat hampir nurd

yg hari2 nye hanya buku n study

even ak de gak masukkan sumtink else bg menceriakan hari ak

tp still not enough...

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

then ak nak try carik solution...

...study group.....

tp still can't coz ak ni plik dr org...

so pemikiran ak yg berbeda ni menyebabkan ak x ley masuk ngan org lain...

arghhhh susah gilew kalu cam ni.....

ak kalu juz jd pendengar n x tau pe plak yg diceritakan

sure ak rase ak ni ba****g jew n byk x study....

penat2 hidop cam ni.....

dah le kalu time keje nanti pown susah.....

ohh GOD plez show me some solution....

damn bored

assalamualaikum....

erm....

what a sucks of life i feel now....

ntah le...

boring gile rase nye hidop university ak...

sepatutnye this the time kite collect memory...

tp ak cam xde pe2 pown...

ari2 buat bende yg same...

keep repeating from day by day....

its true as student i should study...

for me is no doubt about that...

tp nak gak enjoy but not la all the time...

tp masalahnye hidop ak skang ni even once pown susah nak rase the enjoy time...

tension....

mmg betol kat trganu ni xde pe2 tpt utk lepak di bandaraya die..

tp that not the point...

ak rase cam nak lari jew dr sni...

carik memembe lame ak balik utk g nikmati hidop remaje ak...

nak kate selalu study pown xde la sgt..

result ttp @Y$*6(^((%*698....

so pe lg faktor nye....

so now im hoping that there is an enviroment that support me to create my campus life colourful..

hopefully....

aminn

hari selasa ku...

assalamualaikum....

hari ini hari selase...

pown xde yg special + extravaganza...

tp ri ni....

ayah ak g ijn.....

then pas maghrib tadi ak call ayah ak...

then die cakap cam not so serius...

tp next 19 die kne g ijn balik utk...

undergoes some procedure of intubation through artery( ye kew term 2)

arghh..bedal jew..

he3

kalu serius dr kate kne wat balloning angioplastic....

nak tau pe 2 a

goggle la...

ha33

k la

that all....

haish....

assalamualaikum....

erm....

what to story erk....

erm....

ak pown x tau...

ri ni cam xde bende menarik jew....

jadual ri ni smmgnye boring

pagi g klaz...

then ptg kuar jog...

mlm g library...

that all...

what a sucks of life...

but the good thing is im still can breath and live in this world...

erm....

so tomorrow(its meant today la according to time)

my beloved father will go to IJN for an appointment

coz of hypotension yg die dpt ri 2...

hopefully nothing serious happen or even no at all...

hermmmm

moge2 la yerk...

now ak ngah blogging kat bili 24 jam kat library kota...

very bez this place

so peaceful and cold(de air-cond kowt)....

lgpown kalu dok bilik main jew....

sini on9 pown laju...

mmg puas hati....

but yg x syok nyer...

ak nak study...

tp bukak je buku n note...

everything is very dull n bored...

im just like losing my mind to study...

arghhhhhhhhhhhh

hope i can really3 prepair for my last EOM for this sem...

hati lelaki

assalamualaikum...

sumer org tgk lelaki pada dasarnye adalah satu golongan yg diciptakan kasar...

namun pada dasarnya mereka juge berhati lembut kerna mereka juga insan biasa...

begitu juga lah dgn ak....

bukan nak kate ak bapok..(PAHAM)

tp ak x tau la kenape...

semenjak ayah ak sakit ni...

ak rase cam pilu jer bile terkenang tentang 2...

ak x kisah kalu putus cinta, awek curang o anything else...

but if related to my parent my heart may

cry even can't be seen...

mmg dah lumrah insan seperti itu...

sebenarnye ak ni takowt,....

if anything happen to my father

ak still not ready for anything that may came...

hopefully nothing happen....

entah le....

moge2 sumer selamat..

aminn

diri ku....

assalamualaikum....

erm...

ak ni xde la suke touching sangat

tp ak agak panas la aklu de orang suke bandingkan diriku ni ngan orang lain...

ak tau la ak ni xde la pandai sangat....

then ak ni sememamngnye bukan dak baek.....

bebende jahat sumer ak de buat(tp xde la setan besar nye keje)....

tekanan ak kalu de orang bandingkan ak....

then ri ni de plak nak tocher2....

ak x kisah...

coz ak tau ak ni mmg bukan dak pandai pownm....

tp entah le ....

sumetink wrong je ak rase....

tekanan3....

mmg la de org kate ak dah lulus...

nengade plak nak kate x elok....

tp buat diriku ak....

ak xley coz kalu deorg lain ley wat elok...

x kan ak xley....

ak pown human being gak....

x cacat(except rabun)

then ak skang ni ak rase diriku ak dah jauh dr landasan yg betol...

ak mudah hanyut....

naseb baek la ak ikowt usrah....

de gak ak terasa ak ni dah jauh melalut....

pe ke hal ntah diri ni...

tp yg penting sok ak balik ipowh...

nak jumpe ayah ak....

coz next week die g ijn...

hope xde la pe2 yg buruk jadi..

moge2 sumer slamat.....

aminn.....